How far can we fall
Masakit daw magmahal. Nakakatakot, pwede rin sigurong nakakalula. Bakit? Marahil yung tinatwag nilang "falling in love" na nga talaga yung nagdikta kung bakit masakit magmahal. Kasi paniguradong masakit talaga kapag nahulog ka. Pero ano nga ba yung mahalaga? Karamihan kasi sa atin nakikita na lang ung"love" as "pain" dahil nga siguro sa salitang "pagkahulog", siyempre lalagapak ka nun sa kung saan man. Eh paano ba naman kasi, yung pagkahulog na lang ung tanging nakikita nila, yung "the fall" at hindi yung "the process of falling." Pwede rin kasi natin tong ihambing sa pakiramdam natin kapag nag ii-slide ka sa pool. Yung thrill, yung kaba at yung excitement ng pagkalaglag mo habang mabilis kang bumubulusok patungo sa tubig. Masaya, pero kapag nasa tubig ka na, wala na, hindi na ganon kabilis yung tibok ng puso mo. Diba?Ganun nga din kasi siguro sa pagmamahal, kaso nga lang hindi na natin napapansin dahilsa sobrang bilis nung “process of falling” kasi nga minamadali natin lahat. Na masyado tayong nakukulong sa idea ng "pagkahulog", kaya hindi na natin naeenjoy yung thrill, yung kaba, yung saya habang nahuhlog tayo dun sa taong gusto nating makasama pang habang buhay.
Maybe it’s just we really don’t have to prepare for the “fall”, rather we just have to enjoy “falling.” Maybe it’s just about finding the way how to cherish the pull of gravity. Maybe it’s about how hard we try to keep ourselves falling over and over again for the same person forever. Maybe it’s about reserving that “fall” til the day we’ll have our last breath. Maybe it’s about asking ourselves, “how far can I fall?” Maybe.
hindi ko rin alam eh. nafall na rin kasi ako sa bestfriend ko. nasaktan lang ako, kami. haha.
pero anjan ka na rin eh, masasaktan at masasaktan ka na lang din. Isagad mo na, mag risk ka na.
I. Wala yan sa tagal ng trapik, nasa soundtrip yan ni Manong. Parang pag-ibig. Wala yan sa tagal ng relasyon, nasa lalim yan at saya ng pinagsamahan.
II. Ang pag-ibig ay parang pagsakay sa jeep. Tipong gusto mong sumakay sa harapan pero doon ka lang talaga sa likod. #FriendzonedLevel99.
I’ve been longing for the real you for weeks already. I’ve been looking for you for nights in my dreams but you’re nowhere to be found. I just thought of you wearing a new “you” which could be the reason why my heart can recognize you no more. “Am I being too selfish?” This is what I’ve been asking myself whenever I feel guilty of not being able to understand you, of not being able to see the real you in you. Falling in love with you wasn’t that hard, I mean the process. But the fall itself was pretty unbearble. This is what makes everything complicated, the after fall thing. What’s the next thing to do? Cause it seems that everything does not fall into its place anymore like I did way before i have found you. Learning you is not easy, but I wont hesitate to do that again if you already had some revisions on your side. I would still whisper your name in your ears and stare at you for a parcel of forever. But please dont get me wrong if there would be times that I could not catch up anymore. Im still learning this and that, Im still learning you. And don’t be surprised if there would be instances where I’d be an instant caveman after choosing not to talk to you for days just because my patience was already out of stock. It is rest assured that I’ll stay but not that I can always find you. It can’t always be like this, you have to grow, I have to, we have to. And yes, change is constant but please, seek for the good one.